Aren't you dying to start living?

I don't think I have much to say today, but I decided that I should post before half a month prolongs into a month, and then into three months, and then into a year, and then into yet another project that I never finish, that goes gently into that good night, that I look back on and say "why didn't I pursue that?"
I'm intelligent, I know that, but it doesn't stop me from feeling overwhelmed and under-prepared.
Not thinking too well today, didn't get enough sleep again. I think when I graduate all I'll do is sleep. And, I guess, work since I have to.
It's hard, vacillating so much between wanting to do something to make a difference and wanting to give up.


Sometimes I think I'd be happier

I guess this is going to be one of those blogs.
Scott got offline but wasn't really there to begin with.

I have to get a new job and don't want to. I have to work on my vet applications and don't want to. I have to ask professors for recommendation letters and am scared to. I have to take the GRE and don't want to. I have to find a new place to live and don't want to.
Why is there so much stuff I have to do unwillingly?
The proverbial They say that tasks are easier to accomplish if you make yourself want to do them. I don't know where to begin.

Some people say they don't dream. I remember that I have dreams and don't remember what they are.

What am I really meant to do?



There are way too many applicable songs stuck in my head right now.